notes of everyday disintegration

25 dec 2020 2:34am

Each time it devastates me, recalling him. I can't believe it. I never met him, crossed paths one morning in Brooklyn, near my work, too shy to say hello. But he accompanied my days. Every fucking day.
Michael Jamal Brooks, you were rare, and necessary. Such a goddamn beautiful spirit.
Guide us, brother. Remind us the world is still worth believing in.
Clip Reel: invidious
Impressions: invidous
Search Michael Brooks, and TMBS on Youtube. Watch everything.

15 dec 2020 12:32pm

Noli Me Tangere

She is a septuagenarian, hair Tuscan red.
V, I will call her.
She is staring at the blank leaf of paper, a colored pencil held loosely between her fingers. I ask her what she feels like drawing today. She turns to me - one always turns to say: "It used to be so easy for me. Now I have nothing to put."
Later, one day, we will both be sitting in the day room, alone except for Marcus, who is nestled in the corner holding the TV remote in the air, perpetually clicking. "They tell us we are not allowed to touch," V will say to me, before reaching across the table to enfold my hand in both of her own. And then: "I have a special affection for you. I hope you will be okay. I hope we will."

9 dec 2020 7:05pm

One more reason to drop google.

Struggled to do anything today, mostly lost in audio/textual rabbit holes.
Here's a playlist inspired by the afternoon's sonic detours. Maybe you - whoever happens to land here - will find something you like.

Ondara - I'm Afraid of Americans
Run the Jewels, Zack De La Rocha, Pharrel - JU$T
Zebra Katz - Drk Binder
Levin Goes Lightly - 1989
The Coup - The Guillotine
Funkadelic - Free Your Mind and Your Ass Will Follow
Nakhane - Age of Consent
Saul Williams, Haleek Maul - All Coltrane Solos At Once
Alec Empire, Merzbow - The White Man Destroys His Own Race
Drvg Cvltvre - Techno Has Become A Capitalist Tool
Dub Gabriel, Michael Stipe - Cheree
Sleaford Mods, Billy Nomates - Mork n Mindy
Soul Glo - 31
Black Pumas - Colors
Shovels & Rope, Nicole Atkins - Joey
Brittany Howard - You'll Never Walk Alone